I am using journaling right now as a prayer. this prayer to you has thanked and sought help. First I would like to thank you for giving me another day of life and 112 days of recovery. Thank you for letting me live and choose recovery. Thank you for guiding me down this recovery path since March 1st and helping me continue on.
Thank you for the best Delaware team, my psychiatrist, my residential team, my recovery friends from Delaware and from residential, my parents, my sister, my family, and friends. Thank you for giving me daily signs from you with gifts from above like people, comments, and butterflies.
I said in the car when I was on my way to residential freaking out that I surrender to you. I ask for your guidance, help, comfort, and peace for my mind, body, and soul. I ask for you to fully guide me on my recovery journey and for me to learn to live life again.
I love you God and I apologize for the times I obeyed and trusted ED instead of you. I asl for your forgiveness of this and anytime I've been unfaithful. I ask for you to help me reconnect with myself, my mind, body, and soul. I ask for you to guide me to my calling. I need your guidance rather than answers of why I have ED etc. because I have ED and I am fighting every day thanks to you.
Thank you for every day of life I have been given, from the unhealthy ones living with ED to the getting healthy ones on my recovery journey.
I know you're always with me. Please remind me of your presence, that you're guiding me every step that of your presence, that you're guiding me every step, that you created me and I am beautiful inside and outside. Please remind me of my identity and what's important in that identity.
Please help guide me to discover who I am without ED. Please help me remember events or passed times that could be underlying issues to my ED. Please help me turns traits into positive for future me. Please help me trust, love, and let my walls down to my recovery team.
No Retreat No Surrender