Day 121 - June 29th

Saturday Smiles :) It's supposed to thunderstorm today so we will see if it actually does. My shorts actually fit good today so there's a happy healthy 15 days of residential. We get to watch TV anytime since it's Saturday and we're currently watching the office before breakfast. I think it's just a weekend chill type of vibe today but I guess because I expected it to be raining all day I fell more of the rain on its way.


Saturday breakfast is cereal, banana, and sliced almonds, this Saturday's breakfast I chose Raisin Bran. I'm happy knowing I am seeing my family later. I am giving myself grace and time today because that's what I feel like I need today. Morning snack I had yogurt, granola, and apple. I did some painting of the wood items I got at Michaels yesterday. I feel healthier every day here and closer to discharge with my growth physically, mentally, and emotionally here.


I will be always be thankful for the friends I've made here. I don't know how I would survive residential without the friends I've made here. We watch a movie before families arrived. We had family group today and in this group we wrote letters to each other. My parents and I cried as many in the room did. It was an emotional guilt I was feeling in the room because of how much time, patience, and understanding my parents have had to deal with. For snack after group I had a strawberry poptart. I caught up with my family after snack.


We watched daddy day care in free time before dinner. For dinner we had salad and spaghetti and meatballs and it was disappointing because dinner was behind schedule and the meal was so cold. I put my fork in the spaghetti and it all came off the plate. It is annoying when food isn't the temperature it should be because it's not like we are able to heat it up, like I would do at home. Either way have to eat because I refuse to supplement.


Evening snack I had graham crackers with nutella. My allergies have been bothering me today so I hope they go away tomorrow. Tomorrow I have an outing with ym family in the morning to the beach. I feel more emotional and stressed and I know it's because I'm not giving myself enough credit and I need to put my faith and trust in God's path and timing.


It's hard because I am on day 15 and I don't know how long I will be here for. I know I am doing great work and feeling better each day it's just a hope that everything works out for the best. I'm happy i'm letting myself feel these feelings and i'm thankful God gave me life and this journey is hard but I wouldn't be on it if I wasn't supposed to.



No Retreat No Surrender. JR

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